Someone told me that I project a care free person, happy go lucky kind of attitude. But they don't know that every day, I struggle to get up in the morning, I thank God for the day to ahead, and ask Him that, if it His will to give me another day on this earth, what should I do with it?
I am so tired of keeping up appearances. I am so tired of being happy and OK all the time. But if I stop, working, stop making my appearance, then how can I better please everyone around me. How can I be of use to other people.
Twisted thoughts. Twisted mind. I want to give up, sometimes I just want to die, and rest. But since I am still here, I don't have a choice but to serve. As they say, that all things God may be glorified.